I think I know how to tell this story with the objective being TO CHANGE POLICIES. First, recover as soon as you can hear your own thinking connecting to previous thoughts so it's not just a single thought it's NEW INFO (What You Just Learned!) connecting to a priori. All the previous are writing samples created by adrenaline created by ptsd.
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Today is March 1, 2024 (3:59 CT) & I am writing! The pre-requisite is (a) hearing voice (b) no fear because when specific threats are made, it’s very real (c) checked with consent & yes, I still believe in the original promise to self & society. I’m a school teacher (my identity) & said, “if I get my voice back, God. I’ll use it for good.” These are not words spoken in-the-moment, but with real power behind it & that cones from faith & trusting we all have a purpose from the bugs that crawl in the dirt, to a soaring eagle, to the laborers that built our world to the highest & mightiest sitting on board rooms & throne rooms.
UPDATE : 10/5/22 : The picture on this podcast (main profile) relates to the fact to GET NUMBERS BACK, one must expose self to numbers, just like TO READ, exposure to what that squiggle is (a letter!) can happen daily, hourly, all the time if an adult/grown up/teacher/parent/willing participant wants to SHOW someone (a child usually, but could be an adult who has never been given that exposure, this being THAT YOU CAN LIVE ANOTHER WAY & THAT YOU CAN ABSOLUTELY DISAGREE [since the original #ptsd #audio #trigger & warning on replay (2 things) is/are the words, "in my family, any disagreement is a confrontation" & my response, "well, I disagree that you cannot disagree without confronting them, but I guess I'll see what you mean," & now, I'll share my observations. 12 years TEACHING SPECIAL ED in Chicago Public Schools (said it, not scared & definitely willing to expose. ya'll since CTU is with CPD & if not, please explain it to me since I will say verbatim what I hear & see since successfully removed all triggers beginning today, October 5th, 2022)21 years advocacy since moving to Chicago in 2000.40 years of just being alive because "in my family, I get the best of everything since they went through it first & taught me what never to do which is what they did (really? Thanks for reTEACHING it to me over & over since those are their words on replay over & over & it's, "I'm confused") & what always to do. Speak.FIRST WRITING WITH FIRST UPLOAD ~ June 9th, 2022 : Sharing everything that helped end trauma including those that HELPED, HARMED, but also have no idea what they did. I am a person learning skills after assaults in 2013 & 2015 so be kind. All I know is that there was a purpose for repeated violence in multiple spaces & I think it was for me to podcast. There is a supplemental video component that may assist to explain or confuse, but it's out there since I changed "their ptsd" & "their suicide" into concrete since you gotta hear it, see it & since you can't feel it unless you go through it, to give YOU the best chance to pick up wha I'm saying/spraying/slaying.We all have an interest in preventing violence since once in the body, it definitely stays in the body. Thanks for listening & if interested in supporting, I'll provide ways to do so since to help me, you must help those who helped me only because the people PAID to care for them (doctors, social services, protective agencies) TOOK ADVANTAGE & I only know that to end trauma, it can not happen again. I'll do everything I can to ensure it never happens again & that is the best I can do.
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I have no idea who I'm speaking about, but the important part is the word "follow" or "following you," you will go back to that memory of being stalked.
Why I put birdseed on the balcon…
Recorded Jan 17, 2025 & it is did not "conclude TV," but today June 18, 2025, I did secure numbers. Last bit. I said it since I was asking Siri something different than "what's the weat…
this conversation about a photo did happen--couldn't find the digital copy (ok) & the answer to when you listened to the voice memo was not.
The only difference is ASKING THE QUESTION t…
KNOPE to get to NOPE (someone used to say this word a lot & was around one of my students with special needs...)
Then ptsd & the "t" is "thanks" and then became "no, thanks."
Not what I expected, but I was just responding to "school choice" in the title. This was a decision to confront the principal, his name being on the announcement, to kind of say, "you d…
DESCRIPTION : stating the first voices to dampen audio ptsd created individually was to go back to familiar (Broadway) to be in an unfamiliar (TV) space.
NOTES :
firsTime.
nEXtime.
last t…
When in the moment, containing PTSD, I said just whatever. None of it matters & it's more a tool to understand the people around me since trusting the wrong person is the greatest fear …
the lower case one is who to 100% reject saying "doesn't represent me," & MM is who deserves to hear me without their ptsd before making final decision on how to tell this story.
The question was, "do you want to verbally explain since I had to share, emerging reader & I did not get your texts, to explain your thinking since I don't get it? Yes or no?" The best …
If you know it, you're smarter than I, but this will be WHERE I BEGIN INTERNET & LIBRARY research. In the past, preferred that---absolute quiet, no one near me---then needed noise to dr…
...just heard that word* in what I was listening to (weird!) ---will share that in the only space that matters when it comes to that topic.
There's a bit about my eX in here, but hey, I…
They're listening to the words that help!
Also, using Siri for more than weather just to be exposed to numbers.
Also, deleted 31 recordings. Changed the label/title to many and listening…
When people repeat themselves & now the seed for the oppressed white man, an Apple laptop (rage and an opinion I've not heard since the story was... the opposite), cultural dominance & …
"I know you more than you know yourself," & what thought popped up? That is why in DBT all these memories came rushing in at the same time & those moments/scenes were on replay. The wor…
Recipe for artichokes will be in the writing somewhere. This is the origin. Very few will make the connection & that's the purpose. I'm private & I really don't need people to be curiou…
How people protect each other & how people protect themselves while sacrificing who is "different." Their words.
The importance of this is how I used to watch Korean Horror (not any other culture) before assaults & now, no way! I could not watch a lot of horror anyway, my limit being Stephen King,…
These are bits-and-pieces and when you can talk about it, it can end, but you have to do one more thing to ensure that happens. Make a decision if you're putting this away privately or …
I know I got "yesterday" since I told two people, "hey! what you're doing [taking advantage of the fact every day is a new day] isn't going to work since I know what happened yesterday …