I think I know how to tell this story with the objective being TO CHANGE POLICIES. First, recover as soon as you can hear your own thinking connecting to previous thoughts so it's not just a single thought it's NEW INFO (What You Just Learned!) connecting to a priori. All the previous are writing samples created by adrenaline created by ptsd.
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Today is March 1, 2024 (3:59 CT) & I am writing! The pre-requisite is (a) hearing voice (b) no fear because when specific threats are made, it’s very real (c) checked with consent & yes, I still believe in the original promise to self & society. I’m a school teacher (my identity) & said, “if I get my voice back, God. I’ll use it for good.” These are not words spoken in-the-moment, but with real power behind it & that cones from faith & trusting we all have a purpose from the bugs that crawl in the dirt, to a soaring eagle, to the laborers that built our world to the highest & mightiest sitting on board rooms & throne rooms.
UPDATE : 10/5/22 : The picture on this podcast (main profile) relates to the fact to GET NUMBERS BACK, one must expose self to numbers, just like TO READ, exposure to what that squiggle is (a letter!) can happen daily, hourly, all the time if an adult/grown up/teacher/parent/willing participant wants to SHOW someone (a child usually, but could be an adult who has never been given that exposure, this being THAT YOU CAN LIVE ANOTHER WAY & THAT YOU CAN ABSOLUTELY DISAGREE [since the original #ptsd #audio #trigger & warning on replay (2 things) is/are the words, "in my family, any disagreement is a confrontation" & my response, "well, I disagree that you cannot disagree without confronting them, but I guess I'll see what you mean," & now, I'll share my observations. 12 years TEACHING SPECIAL ED in Chicago Public Schools (said it, not scared & definitely willing to expose. ya'll since CTU is with CPD & if not, please explain it to me since I will say verbatim what I hear & see since successfully removed all triggers beginning today, October 5th, 2022)21 years advocacy since moving to Chicago in 2000.40 years of just being alive because "in my family, I get the best of everything since they went through it first & taught me what never to do which is what they did (really? Thanks for reTEACHING it to me over & over since those are their words on replay over & over & it's, "I'm confused") & what always to do. Speak.FIRST WRITING WITH FIRST UPLOAD ~ June 9th, 2022 : Sharing everything that helped end trauma including those that HELPED, HARMED, but also have no idea what they did. I am a person learning skills after assaults in 2013 & 2015 so be kind. All I know is that there was a purpose for repeated violence in multiple spaces & I think it was for me to podcast. There is a supplemental video component that may assist to explain or confuse, but it's out there since I changed "their ptsd" & "their suicide" into concrete since you gotta hear it, see it & since you can't feel it unless you go through it, to give YOU the best chance to pick up wha I'm saying/spraying/slaying.We all have an interest in preventing violence since once in the body, it definitely stays in the body. Thanks for listening & if interested in supporting, I'll provide ways to do so since to help me, you must help those who helped me only because the people PAID to care for them (doctors, social services, protective agencies) TOOK ADVANTAGE & I only know that to end trauma, it can not happen again. I'll do everything I can to ensure it never happens again & that is the best I can do.
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I'm going to start creating poetry & this podcast serves as the line between THE PAST, now firmly in THE PAST & the next & final step : transform.
For anyone dealing with suicidal ideati…
First strategy will be sharing is breath.
With chronic pain, breathing can hurt. Sneezing really hurt so making sure the house was clear due to cat allergies was a must & my priority & "…
...& to find the YouTube you'll have to scroll, tap & read. Skills that increase my vestibular [then]. I thought if someone was willing to do all that, that must mean something since th…
NEW SEASON since all of this is truly practice until "the test," which is politics because everything that happened to me, I was able to put into education as a student then a teacher (…
Data is important to make good decision & being a behaviorist, concussed at workplace (special educator), can't unlearn how to quantify what is considered non-quantifiable (qualitative …
UPDATE DESCRIPTION : Today is August 13, 2024 & am presently creating the 2nd to last podcast before the 19th of this month. This is a first go (to remove to audio TT of "my parents nev…
I've successful confronted & gotten ahead of the word "NOT" since I used to say, "advocacy is a dialogue, not a monologue" because it's the back-and-forth that can support concussion re…
The best words really will end trauma by giving you IDEAS!
They want US[A] disconnected, so let's CONNECT!
SMC with STT presents DMR.
Thank you!
I'm going to now deSCRIBE how I got on What'…
NOTE : The visuals/new & past notes are in the YouTube channel as well (to remove it from this computer--memory capacity!) & haven't done that for awhile.
-- R shoulder pain really up l…
internet research started today & because the internet is a container for PTSD/SUICIDE there are ways to contain it.
IF SOMEONE REACHES OUT TO YOU or has DMs, messages, behaviors that ar…
Just listen.
I'm done with this space.
Just meaning it happened.
I can hear my voice.
No need for MY voice over theirs since there's nothing RISING UP (mental abuse) or BATTERING DOWN (p…
May 24, 2024 LISTENED to "bits" to know, what is this?
STEP ONE : get it out and IN SPACEs that absolutely are the scariest (just like "write the ugliest stuff on prettiest paper" & si…
...moved on a long time ago when decided "to teach" a third & final curriculum to see if it would put teaching away & return me to whole. It did!
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& reflect. It sounds like a really "OFF" me so what is that?
How did I even begin in this type of advocacy? TO GET OUT OF MY HOUSE & WHO WAS I MOST GRATEFUL FOR? WHO I SAID HELLO TO FIR…
This are my notes.
Thanks for supporting those living with difference in recovery & a ton of stigma I will be writing about since that was suicide & now it's back to ORIGIN/THEM.
Smarter…
I'll be saving around 15m for PART III of Mr. Baker which is my conversion with Ms. ___ who can hopefully OK the voucher then pair 14/18 client to proper school TO TEACH him what he nee…
...estimation & making accurate guesses is a skill. Learn to make your mistakes in school where there are people who are encouraging you to succeed unlike {you fill-in-the-blank]. This …
I figured out why I couldn't podcast last 2 months or so (no excuses just counting triggers & confronting) & now, I know, sometimes it's those that say "biggest supporter [of vindicatin…