I think I know how to tell this story with the objective being TO CHANGE POLICIES. First, recover as soon as you can hear your own thinking connecting to previous thoughts so it's not just a single thought it's NEW INFO (What You Just Learned!) connecting to a priori. All the previous are writing samples created by adrenaline created by ptsd.
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Today is March 1, 2024 (3:59 CT) & I am writing! The pre-requisite is (a) hearing voice (b) no fear because when specific threats are made, it’s very real (c) checked with consent & yes, I still believe in the original promise to self & society. I’m a school teacher (my identity) & said, “if I get my voice back, God. I’ll use it for good.” These are not words spoken in-the-moment, but with real power behind it & that cones from faith & trusting we all have a purpose from the bugs that crawl in the dirt, to a soaring eagle, to the laborers that built our world to the highest & mightiest sitting on board rooms & throne rooms.
UPDATE : 10/5/22 : The picture on this podcast (main profile) relates to the fact to GET NUMBERS BACK, one must expose self to numbers, just like TO READ, exposure to what that squiggle is (a letter!) can happen daily, hourly, all the time if an adult/grown up/teacher/parent/willing participant wants to SHOW someone (a child usually, but could be an adult who has never been given that exposure, this being THAT YOU CAN LIVE ANOTHER WAY & THAT YOU CAN ABSOLUTELY DISAGREE [since the original #ptsd #audio #trigger & warning on replay (2 things) is/are the words, "in my family, any disagreement is a confrontation" & my response, "well, I disagree that you cannot disagree without confronting them, but I guess I'll see what you mean," & now, I'll share my observations. 12 years TEACHING SPECIAL ED in Chicago Public Schools (said it, not scared & definitely willing to expose. ya'll since CTU is with CPD & if not, please explain it to me since I will say verbatim what I hear & see since successfully removed all triggers beginning today, October 5th, 2022)21 years advocacy since moving to Chicago in 2000.40 years of just being alive because "in my family, I get the best of everything since they went through it first & taught me what never to do which is what they did (really? Thanks for reTEACHING it to me over & over since those are their words on replay over & over & it's, "I'm confused") & what always to do. Speak.FIRST WRITING WITH FIRST UPLOAD ~ June 9th, 2022 : Sharing everything that helped end trauma including those that HELPED, HARMED, but also have no idea what they did. I am a person learning skills after assaults in 2013 & 2015 so be kind. All I know is that there was a purpose for repeated violence in multiple spaces & I think it was for me to podcast. There is a supplemental video component that may assist to explain or confuse, but it's out there since I changed "their ptsd" & "their suicide" into concrete since you gotta hear it, see it & since you can't feel it unless you go through it, to give YOU the best chance to pick up wha I'm saying/spraying/slaying.We all have an interest in preventing violence since once in the body, it definitely stays in the body. Thanks for listening & if interested in supporting, I'll provide ways to do so since to help me, you must help those who helped me only because the people PAID to care for them (doctors, social services, protective agencies) TOOK ADVANTAGE & I only know that to end trauma, it can not happen again. I'll do everything I can to ensure it never happens again & that is the best I can do.
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Starting ~8 days ago. It's May 9th so that means yesterday, I was able to stay silent & in quiet, there was no noise & no sensation in body/face so it was--quiet--5 seconds then pain wo…
Just say it once without any fear & full on consent meaning, whatever happens, I'm always going to be a mandated recorder/reporter of abuse & neglect.
"I have the "after visit summary" f…
...Then GO BACKWARDS & upload this month's visuals to yt.
Then start writing those NOTES into sentences into paragraphs into one final draft.
Field Notes.
The first trigger will be the red blinking hand since that brought back anxiety sobriety.
FIRST DATE (pinned to X) :
LET IT OUT : March 18, 2024
I can't wait to get 100% well & then layer the process I used TO END (a) ptsd (b) suicide & (c) reverberating chronic pain leading to increase symptoms of (a) & (b). Based on DATA, the …
The purpose is to understand how these triggers connect, like a food web. After NWMH'S CBT/DBT's (unthoughtful & lazy facilitation) first & only step of "describe the trigger & use WISE…
It's true that in order to do a higher-level thinking skill set like writing you have to have some pre-requisites e.g. hearing own voice, not ptsd triggering/flashbacking, able to re-re…
Organize this & start writing those letters & sharing the steps to dampen each trigger to get to this point because first you have to do what's most comfortable to take off that edge, I…
This project was about changing policies for kids with special needs or share what I know to s/v in the ER & remind them people out there care since I had that after mine & I wanted to …
This is the first time (of many times) I’ll be writing while listening which is the basis for the skill set, note taking. If I write something 3x, that means I heard it & then re-listen…
I will update this process as it goes which is DIFFERENT than the first go---with Northwestern Memorial Hospital (NWMH)---since didn't know what to do mostly since in shock, but kept tr…
Hear/See Something, Do Something [as long as it's not self-harm].
I hear self speaking about a child with profound & severe needs
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ORIGIN : principal who hired …
I am listening to this : Sunday, January 28th @ 11:17 PM
There will be an edited version at this YouTube : found another! to plant the seed for VIDEO since I made trauma 3-D (you can see…