I think I know how to tell this story with the objective being TO CHANGE POLICIES. First, recover as soon as you can hear your own thinking connecting to previous thoughts so it's not just a single thought it's NEW INFO (What You Just Learned!) connecting to a priori. All the previous are writing samples created by adrenaline created by ptsd.
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Today is March 1, 2024 (3:59 CT) & I am writing! The pre-requisite is (a) hearing voice (b) no fear because when specific threats are made, it’s very real (c) checked with consent & yes, I still believe in the original promise to self & society. I’m a school teacher (my identity) & said, “if I get my voice back, God. I’ll use it for good.” These are not words spoken in-the-moment, but with real power behind it & that cones from faith & trusting we all have a purpose from the bugs that crawl in the dirt, to a soaring eagle, to the laborers that built our world to the highest & mightiest sitting on board rooms & throne rooms.
UPDATE : 10/5/22 : The picture on this podcast (main profile) relates to the fact to GET NUMBERS BACK, one must expose self to numbers, just like TO READ, exposure to what that squiggle is (a letter!) can happen daily, hourly, all the time if an adult/grown up/teacher/parent/willing participant wants to SHOW someone (a child usually, but could be an adult who has never been given that exposure, this being THAT YOU CAN LIVE ANOTHER WAY & THAT YOU CAN ABSOLUTELY DISAGREE [since the original #ptsd #audio #trigger & warning on replay (2 things) is/are the words, "in my family, any disagreement is a confrontation" & my response, "well, I disagree that you cannot disagree without confronting them, but I guess I'll see what you mean," & now, I'll share my observations. 12 years TEACHING SPECIAL ED in Chicago Public Schools (said it, not scared & definitely willing to expose. ya'll since CTU is with CPD & if not, please explain it to me since I will say verbatim what I hear & see since successfully removed all triggers beginning today, October 5th, 2022)21 years advocacy since moving to Chicago in 2000.40 years of just being alive because "in my family, I get the best of everything since they went through it first & taught me what never to do which is what they did (really? Thanks for reTEACHING it to me over & over since those are their words on replay over & over & it's, "I'm confused") & what always to do. Speak.FIRST WRITING WITH FIRST UPLOAD ~ June 9th, 2022 : Sharing everything that helped end trauma including those that HELPED, HARMED, but also have no idea what they did. I am a person learning skills after assaults in 2013 & 2015 so be kind. All I know is that there was a purpose for repeated violence in multiple spaces & I think it was for me to podcast. There is a supplemental video component that may assist to explain or confuse, but it's out there since I changed "their ptsd" & "their suicide" into concrete since you gotta hear it, see it & since you can't feel it unless you go through it, to give YOU the best chance to pick up wha I'm saying/spraying/slaying.We all have an interest in preventing violence since once in the body, it definitely stays in the body. Thanks for listening & if interested in supporting, I'll provide ways to do so since to help me, you must help those who helped me only because the people PAID to care for them (doctors, social services, protective agencies) TOOK ADVANTAGE & I only know that to end trauma, it can not happen again. I'll do everything I can to ensure it never happens again & that is the best I can do.
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Expose self to sports & balls (world ONE)
Also, ~August, I started playing tennis again. Just volleying. AKA RALLY.
BYE!
Who doesn't want to pay rent?
The people who dump the most trauma on me.
Now, I'm getting it.
Just go back to that social narrative & the words, "all I know is that couples fight about m…
I CONSENT. WE ALL CONSENT & to the people that help you, without you, I would not have survived by giving me an avenue to know how to work with someone & HOPE, there's good people not l…
Everything DOES connect, but now, for the first time ever, those connections are being dismantled, no disappear. No. GIVEN BACK TO THEM.
Since TBI can be hard to understood & anyone who is "different" for whatever reason is responsible for explaining especially if there's a need for accommodations like "hey, call me, ins…
NOTE-TAKING for self as I listen. Whatever I write is whatever I write. I'm not writing to an audience to express anything or persuade or solve something, just prating listening & writi…
...so I'm certain I'm just mimicking them & GOD is okay with violence, since if you can figure it out, it'll create a much better life since you know WHO TO TRUST & WHO NOT [if you're a…
Oh geez, the banana!
When you identify "weird dynamics" in relationships within the family, there's definitely something going on...
The way WOMAN are depicted.
The way MEN are depicted.
Ca…
Nicest way to say it to the board, "can you stop yelling at me."
The only people who had INTEL since I don't share this, so they HAD TO KNOW. For those who NOW HAD TO KNOW, the behavior …
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No charger. 3% battery.
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One person can truly change your life but you gotta do it right.
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Giving up the past, the books I thought that would last &…
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dropping seeds for…