I think I know how to tell this story with the objective being TO CHANGE POLICIES. First, recover as soon as you can hear your own thinking connecting to previous thoughts so it's not just a single thought it's NEW INFO (What You Just Learned!) connecting to a priori. All the previous are writing samples created by adrenaline created by ptsd.
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Today is March 1, 2024 (3:59 CT) & I am writing! The pre-requisite is (a) hearing voice (b) no fear because when specific threats are made, it’s very real (c) checked with consent & yes, I still believe in the original promise to self & society. I’m a school teacher (my identity) & said, “if I get my voice back, God. I’ll use it for good.” These are not words spoken in-the-moment, but with real power behind it & that cones from faith & trusting we all have a purpose from the bugs that crawl in the dirt, to a soaring eagle, to the laborers that built our world to the highest & mightiest sitting on board rooms & throne rooms.
UPDATE : 10/5/22 : The picture on this podcast (main profile) relates to the fact to GET NUMBERS BACK, one must expose self to numbers, just like TO READ, exposure to what that squiggle is (a letter!) can happen daily, hourly, all the time if an adult/grown up/teacher/parent/willing participant wants to SHOW someone (a child usually, but could be an adult who has never been given that exposure, this being THAT YOU CAN LIVE ANOTHER WAY & THAT YOU CAN ABSOLUTELY DISAGREE [since the original #ptsd #audio #trigger & warning on replay (2 things) is/are the words, "in my family, any disagreement is a confrontation" & my response, "well, I disagree that you cannot disagree without confronting them, but I guess I'll see what you mean," & now, I'll share my observations. 12 years TEACHING SPECIAL ED in Chicago Public Schools (said it, not scared & definitely willing to expose. ya'll since CTU is with CPD & if not, please explain it to me since I will say verbatim what I hear & see since successfully removed all triggers beginning today, October 5th, 2022)21 years advocacy since moving to Chicago in 2000.40 years of just being alive because "in my family, I get the best of everything since they went through it first & taught me what never to do which is what they did (really? Thanks for reTEACHING it to me over & over since those are their words on replay over & over & it's, "I'm confused") & what always to do. Speak.FIRST WRITING WITH FIRST UPLOAD ~ June 9th, 2022 : Sharing everything that helped end trauma including those that HELPED, HARMED, but also have no idea what they did. I am a person learning skills after assaults in 2013 & 2015 so be kind. All I know is that there was a purpose for repeated violence in multiple spaces & I think it was for me to podcast. There is a supplemental video component that may assist to explain or confuse, but it's out there since I changed "their ptsd" & "their suicide" into concrete since you gotta hear it, see it & since you can't feel it unless you go through it, to give YOU the best chance to pick up wha I'm saying/spraying/slaying.We all have an interest in preventing violence since once in the body, it definitely stays in the body. Thanks for listening & if interested in supporting, I'll provide ways to do so since to help me, you must help those who helped me only because the people PAID to care for them (doctors, social services, protective agencies) TOOK ADVANTAGE & I only know that to end trauma, it can not happen again. I'll do everything I can to ensure it never happens again & that is the best I can do.
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Well, to one person who didn't have the right # nor the ability to sit with the time it takes to get through these instructions & to the next step in their journey.
Kindness is FREE & th…
When you can share their name, then their behaviors really start to fade.
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This is the reflection to what I just "got out" in previous post.
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This person had NO…
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It's all their words.
You have to start writing them.
...and that's her!
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Feng lied. Then changed the narrative all in the same 10 minutes.
This person made up lies about WHY I was given no choice to stay or go. Plus you're "pretending." At the time I thought …
Now imagine that you have NO MOBILE & NO PAY PHONES.
What do you do?
Why, I started out in the park letting people use my phone since had to get out & this was the safest place. The wor…
The Romantics.
Google it.
I learned it & I'm teaching the knowledge, not giving you the answer to our mental health woes! RESIST THE TEMPTATION & seek true LOVE. That's what's mi$$ing o…
WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE?
"An unbelievably high price" unless there's no standards to integrity & honor which is why SAVE THE WORDS.
I learned something that can help FIGURE OUT HOW TO end mental health I$$ues & pretty sure it's about LOVE.
...but I own every word.
After 2015 round of assaults, I'm expressive & at same time, writing this methodology,
OK, it's in the VID.
Now, make the graphic organizer for "what happened to the nest?!"
You provided sound advice to keep writing [to you] saying when are you going to revisit the point wh…
their marketing is "WE ARE A FAMILY COMPANY" & I notice they are everywhere connected to abuse of a child with severe & special need$.
PANERA BREAD isn't all over Chicago, but I did noti…
"so I did 10 minute..." to drop numbers since after 9, there was just darkness. Oh & there were no numbers, just poems, no, just rhyming words (I heard these pop up) or just words
1 : we…
anxiety that is absolutely a symptom of ptsd since the MEDIATOR for CPS (Chicago Public Schools) said anxiety is not so now they're trying to figure out WHY I'M MAKING THIS GRIEVANCE --…