I think I know how to tell this story with the objective being TO CHANGE POLICIES. First, recover as soon as you can hear your own thinking connecting to previous thoughts so it's not just a single thought it's NEW INFO (What You Just Learned!) connecting to a priori. All the previous are writing samples created by adrenaline created by ptsd.
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Today is March 1, 2024 (3:59 CT) & I am writing! The pre-requisite is (a) hearing voice (b) no fear because when specific threats are made, it’s very real (c) checked with consent & yes, I still believe in the original promise to self & society. I’m a school teacher (my identity) & said, “if I get my voice back, God. I’ll use it for good.” These are not words spoken in-the-moment, but with real power behind it & that cones from faith & trusting we all have a purpose from the bugs that crawl in the dirt, to a soaring eagle, to the laborers that built our world to the highest & mightiest sitting on board rooms & throne rooms.
UPDATE : 10/5/22 : The picture on this podcast (main profile) relates to the fact to GET NUMBERS BACK, one must expose self to numbers, just like TO READ, exposure to what that squiggle is (a letter!) can happen daily, hourly, all the time if an adult/grown up/teacher/parent/willing participant wants to SHOW someone (a child usually, but could be an adult who has never been given that exposure, this being THAT YOU CAN LIVE ANOTHER WAY & THAT YOU CAN ABSOLUTELY DISAGREE [since the original #ptsd #audio #trigger & warning on replay (2 things) is/are the words, "in my family, any disagreement is a confrontation" & my response, "well, I disagree that you cannot disagree without confronting them, but I guess I'll see what you mean," & now, I'll share my observations. 12 years TEACHING SPECIAL ED in Chicago Public Schools (said it, not scared & definitely willing to expose. ya'll since CTU is with CPD & if not, please explain it to me since I will say verbatim what I hear & see since successfully removed all triggers beginning today, October 5th, 2022)21 years advocacy since moving to Chicago in 2000.40 years of just being alive because "in my family, I get the best of everything since they went through it first & taught me what never to do which is what they did (really? Thanks for reTEACHING it to me over & over since those are their words on replay over & over & it's, "I'm confused") & what always to do. Speak.FIRST WRITING WITH FIRST UPLOAD ~ June 9th, 2022 : Sharing everything that helped end trauma including those that HELPED, HARMED, but also have no idea what they did. I am a person learning skills after assaults in 2013 & 2015 so be kind. All I know is that there was a purpose for repeated violence in multiple spaces & I think it was for me to podcast. There is a supplemental video component that may assist to explain or confuse, but it's out there since I changed "their ptsd" & "their suicide" into concrete since you gotta hear it, see it & since you can't feel it unless you go through it, to give YOU the best chance to pick up wha I'm saying/spraying/slaying.We all have an interest in preventing violence since once in the body, it definitely stays in the body. Thanks for listening & if interested in supporting, I'll provide ways to do so since to help me, you must help those who helped me only because the people PAID to care for them (doctors, social services, protective agencies) TOOK ADVANTAGE & I only know that to end trauma, it can not happen again. I'll do everything I can to ensure it never happens again & that is the best I can do.
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The 2nd conversation with office supervisor who did not immediately call back regarding an issue so was elevated when joined, but by end, able to bring everything down because got all i…
Today is Thursday, November 2, 2023.
Tomorrow will be Wednesday, November 3, 2023.
Notes : Repetition helps me learn. I remember this as I took notes & why audio + visual + tactile is ho…
THESE ARE NOTES.
When I write paragraphs I'll share in the final spaces.
In conversations, especially with people & places that have gotten the message several times if given the chance …
Voice sample & "caught IT!"
What's it?
feeling : completely targeted by specialists
emotion : in-the-moment survival (have to understand & USE my voice to make sure I get out every piece …
Using the "hey neighbor initiative" presented at the Culture Center (previous central library & a fave place), but I lost the pamphlet. Perhaps I can google it...
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These are (1) voice samples & when I write mostly in x/twitter, (2) writing samples in small compartmentalized spaces with limited character space (you got that right!) to practice bein…
Just like how the words, "you talk a lot & ___ doesn't. Why you make a great couple."
When people give you an identity because (a) doesn't talk to me (b) keeps asking me Qs.
Let's begin, …
How many times are they going to NOT say my name? How many times does it take for their reNAMING (the most shameful horrible things---some just don't even make sense---what did you call…
When it's not the right avenue, you won't be able to advance, but if it is, you will. Kind of like a video game, right? I haven't even dropped the seeds for the catalyst for the violenc…
A little this a little that, but most importantly, I can hear my voice making writing much easier. There doesn't seem to be a beginning, middle, end so that's something to work on and t…
While I realize it's too confusing to expect listeners to see visuals & explanations/additional notes typed into the spaces provided while creating in iMovie as another form of WRITING …
DOWNLOAD : started at ~ 11:30 (did not write down & visually can't "see it") and ended at 11:44 (upper R corner & wrote down then checked time again & had not changed).
That's one strate…
Next month, I'll do all 3 hours TO SHOW ahead of ptsd, but also, this is way easier with "media," that cons so I don't die (suicide). Why does it sound so bad? You'd ___ yourself, too s…
See the visuals & written descriptions here. I also added hashtags. Write in every space : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sgR1m8pDYZw
Wrote to Chase Bank, June 6, 2023 & next meeting wi…
This is all about and abusive healthcare system that I will use whatever knowledge EARNED to understand the NEXT abusive healthcare systems (getting ready to call them).
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If you want to get better at anything, you must have daily practice, but if you have ptsd & memories of being mocked, bullied, stigmatized in all these spaces & places in CHICAGO simply…
In this episode I talk to the communication department of AFT in order to talk candidly about changes CTU (Chicago Teacher's Union) should make since they exposed themselves to not be t…
I will update the YouTube video here at channel S . O . Smiley created from acute suicide created from ptsd, flashbacks, fear/anticipation of monthly meetings & 1-3 days practicing (no …
https://youtu.be/j0mV37yg3yg
The quantity of writing has changed so I KNOW PTSD is a lot less. How else to know "if better" when the experts continue to say, there's not enough research …