At a Total Loss
We’ve all had moments that leave us at a total loss — for words, for direction, for what comes next. For me, that moment came when my baby died at 37 weeks. I know firsthand what it feels like to have the world stop and to wonder if you’ll ever find a way forward again.
Sometimes it’s the death of someone you love. Sometimes it’s heartbreak, illness, trauma, or failure. But being “at a total loss” isn’t where the story ends.
This podcast is about what happens after the unthinkable. Each week, host Katherine Lazar sits down with people who have faced life’s hardest blows and asks the real questions: How did you survive? What did it take to keep going? And how did you find a way to thrive again?
Because the truth is, we don’t survive these moments alone. It’s in the stories we share and the community we build that we find the strength to keep going.
Raw, unfiltered, and sometimes even funny, At a Total Loss is here to remind you: whatever’s left you speechless, you’re not alone — and there’s a way forward, together.
- Update frequency
- every 7 days
- Average duration
- 61 minutes
- Episodes
- 116
- Years Active
- 2022 - 2025
Heather + Miles
Heather joins Katherine to chat about her beautiful boy, Miles, who died and was stillborn in April of 2019. We discuss literally EVERYTHING in this episode. Heather is so much fun to talk with and…
Bliss + Harrison
Bliss sits down with Katherine in Atlanta to chat about her beautiful son Harrison, stillborn on February 12, 2013. Her insight almost a decade from his death is vital to those who are just starting…
Ana + Owen
Ana Vick's son Owen was stillborn on October 3, 2015. Since then, she has set her sites on advocacy, prevention, education, and awareness.
Ana is known as Still My Son on social media where she fi…
Amanda + Juniper
This is truly one of the most honest, transparent, and open conversations I've had on this podcast. Amanda's sweet Juniper died and was stillborn on August 9, 2018. After her death, Amanda started …
Katherine's Husband Michael
In this Episode, Katherine's husband, Michael, talks about his experiences before and after the death of their son. He openly talks about the pregnancy, the day they were told Brody was gone, the del…
Bree + Rainey
Bree is the owner of Loved Momma Fitness, a CrossFit coach and also holds a Bachelor’s degree in Psychology. Her beautiful daughter, Rainey, was born still in April of 2021. Before that, she worked…
Amy + Lauren
Amy is a certified life and grief coach. After losing beautiful Lauren at 39.5 weeks and River at 14 weeks, she combined her own experiences with stillbirth, weeks, miscarriage and pregnancy after lo…
Moria + Noah
Moria's beautiful baby, Noah, was born still March 9, 2021. Moria radiates energy, hope and positivity in her experiences after loss. Her ministry, Mother of Wilde, creates beautiful prints of babi…
Katherine's Sister Kristina
In this episode, Katherine talks with her sister Kristina. They discuss the viewpoint and perspective of the support person of a Loss Parent. Trying to help a Loss Mom after the death of their baby…
Erica + Verity
Erica talks about her beautiful daughter, Verity, who died just 13 days after her birth. She opens up about what happened to her and what happened next after her preventable death. We talk about su…
Megan + Grace
**Trigger Warning: baby in the background around 29:50 mark** Megan's daughter, Grace, died at 38 weeks and was born still on June 6, 2020. Megan opens up about her heartbreak and about how she cop…
Domenique + TJ
Domenique is a big voice in the Stillbirth and Baby Loss community. She has been an inspiration to so many as she openly speaks about her experiences after her son TJ was born still in May 29, 2017.…
Sarah + Brody
Liz+Harrison
Liz's first son, Harrison, was born still on October 20, 2021. Liz talks about the changes she's making in her workplace to receive recognition for bereavement and stillbirth rather than if she had …
Introduction
When Katherine's son Brody died, her world shattered. She had no idea what to do with this level of grief. Katherine decided that she needed help surviving while still honoring her son so she reach…
Kelsey+Patrick
Kelsey's first born son Patrick was stillborn May 10, 2019. We discuss genetic blood disorders that cause clots and the medication that is needed to maintain. Kelsey speaks beautifully about how to …