At a Total Loss
We’ve all had moments that leave us at a total loss — for words, for direction, for what comes next. For me, that moment came when my baby died at 37 weeks. I know firsthand what it feels like to have the world stop and to wonder if you’ll ever find a way forward again.
Sometimes it’s the death of someone you love. Sometimes it’s heartbreak, illness, trauma, or failure. But being “at a total loss” isn’t where the story ends.
This podcast is about what happens after the unthinkable. Each week, host Katherine Lazar sits down with people who have faced life’s hardest blows and asks the real questions: How did you survive? What did it take to keep going? And how did you find a way to thrive again?
Because the truth is, we don’t survive these moments alone. It’s in the stories we share and the community we build that we find the strength to keep going.
Raw, unfiltered, and sometimes even funny, At a Total Loss is here to remind you: whatever’s left you speechless, you’re not alone — and there’s a way forward, together.
- Update frequency
- every 7 days
- Average duration
- 61 minutes
- Episodes
- 116
- Years Active
- 2022 - 2025
Your Baby's Birthday
In this episode, I answer your questions and concerns regarding your baby's birthday. I also give perspective on the difference in Brody's 1st Birthday and his 2nd that we just experienced yesterday.…
Support Guide
At the request of many, Liz and I created this short episode to share with those in your circle. We answer your Instagram submissions on what you want others to know. So many times support people jus…
Pregnancy After Loss: Gender Disappointment
Liz (from episode 1 and 30) is back to discuss this taboo topic of "Gender Disappointment" during PAL. This is a topic we get asked about A LOT. Now, I don't love this phrase but it's general and we …
Intimacy & Sex After Loss
Amanda Louder is a Certified Sex & Marriage Coach who helps men & women overcome their obstacles to create a more emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and physically intimate relationship. She speaks…
'Tis the Season to be Griefy + more
You asked and I'm answering! Y'all submitted questions and topics on Instagram and here's what I'm covering in this episode:
- New Years resolutions are sh*t now.
- Not setting goals and making plans much …
Jeanette + Sabrina: 40 years later
This momma's beautiful daughter was stillborn in 1985. Her perspective ranges over 40 years and she gives insight on what she did and didn't do over the years. We talk about shame behind stillbirth, …
Loss Dad Q&A
Brody's dad, my husband Michael is back to answer questions that we polled from Instagram. This is the perspective of a loss dad and you will hear our back and forth regarding how differently we feel…
Casey + Charlotte
Casey tells us about her beautiful daughter, Charlotte, who was stillborn at 39 weeks from what she feels was a failed induction. She walked into the hospital with a perfectly healthy baby, was heavi…
Thankful for You
I figured today was heavy for a lot of us so I asked Andrea, Terra's Mom, from episode 59 to hop on a quick recording with like 2 hours notice. I scrapped my whole plan for this week and just wanted …
Holidays After Loss
Brody's Dad, my husband Michael is back in the studio with me to discuss the upcoming holidays. This is the second holiday season after loss for us and we discuss how different they are from last yea…
Lauren + Austin
Lauren tells us about her beautiful boy, Austin, who died at 38 weeks from a cord compression. Her way of accepting what has happened has brought her peace which she explains in this episode. She als…
Chelsea + Elizabeth
Chelsea talks about her daughter Elizabeth who died and was stillborn just 9 months ago. Chelsea and I had connected just after her death and to see what she has done with her grief, how she copes an…
Crystal-Gayle + Damani
Crystal-Gayle tells her story from where she lives, Jamaica, and the many efforts she has put in to get change to happen there. Her precious son, Damani, was born prematurely and died just a few shor…
Parenting Your Newborn After Loss
HEADS UP: This episode speaks about having a living baby after loss. Sarah from episode 24 is back to chat with me about our experiences in this phase of loss life with a 4 month and 6 month old. Thi…
Stillbirth Prevention & Advocacy
Amanda from Episode 12 is back! She talks about her recent efforts in DC to create awareness around stillbirth prevention and making moves to stop it. With the organization, Measure the Placenta, she…
Surrogate Loss Mom
Camila is a surrogate Loss Mom who experienced a full term stillbirth. In this episode we discuss her experiences with her surrogacy, the weight it put on her and her family and the preventable death…
Andrea + Terra
Andrea is the mother of 6 children. Her 5th baby, her beautiful daughter, Terra, died at 38 weeks in July of 2021. Terra's two vessel cord has not been to blame but Andrea wonders why there isn't mor…
Audience Questions
Y'all asked and I'm answering! I polled my IG audience to see what topics you wanted me to address. So it's just lil ole me on the mic giving you my perspective. Please note that I am not a professi…
Kids Grief Support
Jessica Correnti has been a Certified Child Life Specialist for 15+ years. Jessica's daughter, Maggie, was stillborn at 22 weeks nearly 7 years. She is the author of Forever Connected, a children’s b…
Maria + Rylen
Maria lost her first son Rylen James Laxer on October 12, 2022 due to an umbilical cord accident. Maria was 39 weeks pregnant & her world was completely shattered. She is doing the work in order to …