At a Total Loss
We’ve all had moments that leave us at a total loss — for words, for direction, for what comes next. For me, that moment came when my baby died at 37 weeks. I know firsthand what it feels like to have the world stop and to wonder if you’ll ever find a way forward again.
Sometimes it’s the death of someone you love. Sometimes it’s heartbreak, illness, trauma, or failure. But being “at a total loss” isn’t where the story ends.
This podcast is about what happens after the unthinkable. Each week, host Katherine Lazar sits down with people who have faced life’s hardest blows and asks the real questions: How did you survive? What did it take to keep going? And how did you find a way to thrive again?
Because the truth is, we don’t survive these moments alone. It’s in the stories we share and the community we build that we find the strength to keep going.
Raw, unfiltered, and sometimes even funny, At a Total Loss is here to remind you: whatever’s left you speechless, you’re not alone — and there’s a way forward, together.
- Update frequency
- every 7 days
- Average duration
- 61 minutes
- Episodes
- 116
- Years Active
- 2022 - 2025
Marlie: Obstetric Negligence Attorney
Marlie Willer is an experienced trial lawyer that focuses her practice on medical malpractice, with a particular emphasis in obstetric negligence. Throughout her career, she has advocated for childre…
Laura + Lainey Part 2
This is PART 2 of Episode 33 with Laura & Lainey Mae. In this second part, Laura tells us about the death of her baby at just 2 months old. She also dives into candidly what she thinks could have hap…
Laura + Lainey Part 1
In Part 1 of a 2 part Episode, Laura talks with me about precious Lainey Mae, who died at just 2 months old. Laura is a single, Christian mother who is very open about her story & how challenging thi…
Adelying + Sage
Adeyling talks with me about her beautiful son Sage, who died from a life limiting illness, Thanatophoric Dysplasia, that they discovered at just 20 weeks. She has since had another boy, Skye, and ha…
Dr Harvey Kliman
I talk with Dr Harvey Kliman about his research and medical opinion when it comes to the placenta, pregnancy loss/stillbirth, & reoccurring pregnancies. He is a research Scientist in the Department o…
Katherine + Liz talk PAL
Liz is BACK (on her "comeback tour" she says LOL) to discuss pregnancy after loss! Last time she was with us for Episode #1, we discussed life after the death of her son Harrison. Since then she has…
Ashton + Sage
Ashton and I connect to talk about her beautiful daughter Sage who died at full term due to a cord accident. Ashton is no stranger to heartbreak & struggles & she opens up about her first miscarriag…
Sydney + Adam
My girl Sydney and I discuss her life after the death of her first son Adam on Valentine's Day 2021. Her story is open and very honest, personally what I dig most about her. She talks about how much…
Katherine + Brody's Dad
I sit down with my husband, Brody's father, Michael to discuss Brody's 1st Birthday and what this year has been like. He is very open and candid with his experiences with grief, coping, and dealing w…
Katie + Makenna
Katie and I talk about her beautiful daughter Makenna, who was born early and lived for 4 days in the NICU. Katie discusses very openly her experiences with her birth and the days to follow. She is…
Ally + Noelle
Ally learned of her daughter Noelle's life limiting diagnosis, Ebstein's Anomaly, during a follow up anatomy scan. Ally discusses what it was like to live with hope & fear while navigating a pregnan…
Sarah + Nathanial
Sarah talks with me about her first born son, Nathaniel, who she and her wife Amy conceived through IVF. His precious life ended traumatically with severe early-onset preeclampsia, placental abrupti…
Katherine + Brody's Mimi
In this special Christmas episode, I talk with my mom, Brody's Mimi, to hear her perspective on Brody, his death, his life, grief, life after loss and being the mother of a Loss Mom. I will warn you…
Melissa + Lachlan
Melissa and I talk about her beautiful son Lachlan who died and was stillborn in 2016. Since then Melissa has become a Pregnancy and Infant Loss Coach, helping others navigate their new world after …
Crystal + Sienna
Crystal’s daughter, Sienna Grace, was born just two days before my son, Brody. We connected through shared passion around advocacy for better medical and bereavement care. In this episode, we chat ab…
Faryl + Daphne
Faryl and I discuss her beautiful baby, Daphne, and how she has taken on the role of stillbirth, baby loss, and infant death photographer for families in hospitals. **WARNING: Talk about how a still…
Katherine: Holiday Special
Hey it's me, Katherine, and it's just me LOL. I'm flying solo on this special edition. Since the episode drops on Thanksgiving, I wanted to dedicate this one to talking about the holiday and how we…
Mim + Lenny + Bhai
In this episode, I chat with Mim in the UK. Her two son's died within the last year, Lenny at 40 weeks and Bhai at 18 weeks. She, along with her husband, Roy, are cycling the length of New Zealand a…
Heather + Laura Caroline
Heather and I were introduced literally the day Brody died. Her daughter, Laura Caroline, was stillborn in September of 2007. My sister had remembered that a friend of hers had a best friend with a…
Jennica + Hugo
My dear friend Jennica and I met up in Atlanta to discuss her beautiful son Hugo and life after loss. We met through Dr Harvey Kliman who connected us after giving us the rundown on our boys' small p…