At a Total Loss
We’ve all had moments that leave us at a total loss — for words, for direction, for what comes next. For me, that moment came when my baby died at 37 weeks. I know firsthand what it feels like to have the world stop and to wonder if you’ll ever find a way forward again.
Sometimes it’s the death of someone you love. Sometimes it’s heartbreak, illness, trauma, or failure. But being “at a total loss” isn’t where the story ends.
This podcast is about what happens after the unthinkable. Each week, host Katherine Lazar sits down with people who have faced life’s hardest blows and asks the real questions: How did you survive? What did it take to keep going? And how did you find a way to thrive again?
Because the truth is, we don’t survive these moments alone. It’s in the stories we share and the community we build that we find the strength to keep going.
Raw, unfiltered, and sometimes even funny, At a Total Loss is here to remind you: whatever’s left you speechless, you’re not alone — and there’s a way forward, together.
- Update frequency
- every 7 days
- Average duration
- 61 minutes
- Episodes
- 116
- Years Active
- 2022 - 2025
Holly + Harry
Holly is a mother of 4 children: her 3 girls and her son Harry, who was born still on January 31, 2023. Holly is unapologetically navigating this loss life how she wants to just 8 months after his d…
Kelly + Owen
Kelly is a mom to 2 living children and her son Owen, who died in January 2021 at 38 weeks after a placental abruption. To honor Owen, Kelly created #OwensLight to share his story and support her ini…
Sarah + Jasmine
Sarah is behind the rainbow skirt that you may have seen on social media, Project Finding Your Rainbow. She is a mother to three living children and a daughter, Jasmine, who died before she was born …
Alissa + Anna
Alissa lost her first daughter, Anna, in 2018 to a placental abruption that almost took her life too. She talks about her experiences not only losing her daughter but also almost losing her own life.…
Charmell + Harper
Charmell is an IVF Warrior whose first child, Harper, died and was stillborn just a few months ago. I found Charmell's the way she speaks of her loss and copes inspiring. She loves to use her life an…
Nicole + Cameron
Nicole is the momma of two. A 3 year old son on Earth and her daughter, Cameron, in heaven. An unrecognized virus spread throughout older son’s daycare class a week prior to Cameron’s birth. She was …
Emily + Oliver
Emily's first and only child Oliver died and was stillborn just 6 months ago at the time of this recording. The cause is still unknown. While she finds peace in not knowing, she does want to investig…
Baby Weight & Body Image After Loss
Kelsey, Patrick's Momma from Episode 2, is back to discuss a topic that is near and dear to both of us: Baby weight and body image after loss. This is a taboo subject where so many feel like, after t…
Amy + Carter
Amy and I connected on Instagram shortly after her first and only child, Carter, was stillborn in July 2022. She is a total grief vibe as she still laughs, experiences joy and deals with her grief an…
Nikki + Skylar
This episode is incredible. Nikki talks to me about her beautiful baby Skye who died from a severe and rare disorder called Meckel-Gruber Syndrome. It is only passed to the baby if both parents are c…
Dr Heather Florescue, OBGYN
Dr Heather Florescue is an OBGYN in Rochester, NY and works at Women’s Gynecology and Childbirth Associates. Her passion is caring for families who experience pregnancy loss and stillbirth awareness …
Liz, Kelsey + Sarah are BACK!
The ladies from the 1st three episodes of At a Total Loss are back to tackle some popular topics regarding loss. If you didn't listen to their first episodes, Liz is Harrisons mom who was born over a…
Sydney + Leighton
Sydney & I met up here in Atlanta to talk about her beautiful first born child, Leighton, who died at 39 weeks from a 4x nuchal cord on October 17, 2022. This is an extremely rare event, and unlike a…
My Story
Welp, y'all asked for it, so I'm givin it to ya! I've had some requests to tell my story, all the way back to my dancin days & what exactly happened to Brody. You could probably piece it all together…
The Loss Life: Katherine + Mim
Mim, Lenny & Bhai's mom, is back to catch up on what has happened since she came on Episode 18. Since then she has raised awareness about baby loss by cycling the length of New Zealand with her husba…
Nathalie + A'Mya
Nathalie is a mother of twins, one here on earth and to the other, A'mya who died just days after birth 11.5 years ago. Since then, Nathalie has parented both of them the best she can while learning …
Dealing with Triggers
THIS episode is SO good, we NEED this convo ASAP. Ashton from Episode 29 is back to talk about TRIGGERS & what it means to manage them. She is a Loss Momma as well as a certified transformational li…
The Loss Life: Katherine + Sarah
I'm changing it up! This episode will not be centered around loss but more so about life after loss. Sarah from Episode 3 joins me to discuss what the Loss Life looks like! Things are different now, …
Jennifer: Accelerated Resolution Therapy
Jennifer Is a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist with over 15 years of experience who specializes in treating PTSD/trauma, addiction and couples counseling. She is certified in Accelerated Resolu…
Rebekah + Faith + Asher
Raised Jewish, Bekah is the mother of 3 children in Heaven & 3 earth-side. After discovering her first baby, Faith, had a life-limiting diagnosis at 20 weeks, she turned to God for the first time in …