We’ve all had moments that leave us at a total loss — for words, for direction, for what comes next. For me, that moment came when my baby died at 37 weeks. I know firsthand what it feels like to have the world stop and to wonder if you’ll ever find a way forward again.
Sometimes it’s the death of someone you love. Sometimes it’s heartbreak, illness, trauma, or failure. But being “at a total loss” isn’t where the story ends.
This podcast is about what happens after the unthinkable. Each week, host Katherine Lazar sits down with people who have faced life’s hardest blows and asks the real questions: How did you survive? What did it take to keep going? And how did you find a way to thrive again?
Because the truth is, we don’t survive these moments alone. It’s in the stories we share and the community we build that we find the strength to keep going.
Raw, unfiltered, and sometimes even funny, At a Total Loss is here to remind you: whatever’s left you speechless, you’re not alone — and there’s a way forward, together.
I chat with Lyndsay about her precious second son, Kove, who was born still at 37 weeks just a little over a year ago. That is when her grief and baby loss journey began. Since then she has started K…
Kimberly Isburg, Communications Manager for Count the Kicks and Healthy Birth Day, joins me to discuss the importance of tracking fetal movement and the mission that she is on with her team to make p…
I break down 3 popular topics after baby loss.
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Catherine is the mother to her TWO angel babies, Brooklyn (11/29/16) and Miles (12/7/17 - 12/14/17) and her now miracle baby, Lux. Catherine's experiences have covered a range of "rare" circumstances…
I tackle THE most requested topic from my followers "how do handle anxiety during pregnancy after loss". So I polled and here I read off all the things y'all sent to me regarding this topic. You will…
Amanda, Junie's Mama, comes on to talk about getting your Pregnancy After Loss (PAL) Birth Plan together. Juniper was born still at 38 weeks due to an undiagnosed small placenta (if you want to hear …
Molly talks about her precious Roman who was stillborn at full term just over a year ago. Molly provides insight on her faith, her support group, and gives advice to anyone who is afraid to experienc…
I asked what y'all wanted to hear about. So many of you wanted to discuss the added losses after our babies die. I took your submissions and I discuss the following in this episode:
Courtney's precious Conrad was born still after a seemingly perfect pregnancy. Her journey to this point is super insightful and extremely raw. We chat about literally everything in this episode. No …
Bri's daughter Caroline was diagnosed with a rare form of CHD called Ebstein’s Anomaly. Living in Sacramento, her and her husband moved to Stanford to ensure she received the best possible care. Afte…
Loss of relationships is a HUGE topic after baby death. In this episode, I break down the 4 categories of family & friend relationship loss that I see and hear about all the time.
1) People who choos…
I'm tackling the topic of having to make decisions after loss. While some don't think this is an issue, Loss Moms find it to be a massive one. Especially when it comes to PAL, babies, loved ones, & a…
Sharon's life changed forever with the tragic death of Matthew, her only child, when he was just 17 years old. She felt she had no purpose and became angry and lost. She then consulted with many medi…
For Edlyn, lightning has struck twice: Her first son, Emiliano, was born still 6 years ago. And just 2 years ago, her daughter Avianna died at just 5 months old. She tells us their stories and how sh…
Serena joins me to talk about her beautiful son, Christopher who died from Cord Stricture just one year ago. We talk about signs from him and the strong connection she has. Serena believes that we ar…
Anna joins me to talk about her beautiful daughter Evie, who was born still after a uterine abruption. Anna's pregnancies have been extremely high risk and accepting that it was ultimately too danger…
Dr. Jason Collins is the founder of the Pregnancy Institute. His career and passion has focused on stillbirth, umbilical cord accidents and umbilical cord pathology. Dr. Collins has been researchin…
Ashley and I are in the Atlanta studio to talk about her precious son Daniel who died from a cord accident and was born still in April 2023. As she approaches his first birthday, she talks about how …
Lindsey M. Henke is a licensed clinical social worker and psychotherapist specializing in the grief that accompanies life transitions, specifically during motherhood. She founded Pregnancy After Loss…
Liz's son, Harrison, was stillborn at full term. She joins me in discussing her experiences in her workplace with maternity leave policy and what that looked like. When she found that the terms were …