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Crooked Butterfly Podcast

This is me, sharing where I'm arriving in thoughts, perspectives, and ideas after a dynamic 21 years serving in the Marine Corps and wrestling with "Who Am I"; authentically, and Who Do I Want To Be" now that the military construct is not forcibly shadowing my life. I've found that Nature and tackling the physical & emotional challenges of ultra endurance adventuring provide more insight and clarity on the why's of my experiences and the where's that I can seek for continued personal growth.

Adventure Self-Improvement Mindset Society & Culture Fitness Life Education Leadership Personal Journals
Update frequency
every 9 days
Average duration
32 minutes
Episodes
153
Years Active
2018 - 2024
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Some general thoughts about our country and surrounding the election.

00:16:00  |   Thu 05 Nov 2020
Up & Outta the Hole

Up & Outta the Hole

Pulled out of the funk from the last two weeks. Answering a cool conversation asking how I went about it and what was my process. 

Also, talking a little about Mindfulness and Resiliency

Poem: "The Pro…

00:25:27  |   Wed 28 Oct 2020
Just a Little Self-Pity Party

Just a Little Self-Pity Party

Having a hard time recharging and finding drive the past few days. Just talking aloud to myself to increase the awareness of the landscape I'm working in to better leverage navigate through it.

No ala…

00:23:52  |   Wed 21 Oct 2020
Finding Failure 100H

Finding Failure 100H

Talking through the purpose, design, and intended experience for the last challenge we undertook. I was surprised, not disappointed, and still not quite satisfied. But still also full of self respect…

00:52:15  |   Wed 14 Oct 2020
Diesel Day & Finding Failure

Diesel Day & Finding Failure

A short conversation of Diesel Day and what the event I host is about; without spilling the magic.

Then the conversation turned into my next big events but with some dialogue on why and what I'm looki…

00:35:54  |   Thu 24 Sep 2020
Taking Stuff Off the Plate

Taking Stuff Off the Plate

I was fortunate to be able to spend a quick 30 min on a call with Dave Colina; founder and CEO of O2 Recovery, and hear how he wrestles with a handful of the same things I do; both personally and pro…

00:26:27  |   Wed 16 Sep 2020
Feeding the Third Circle

Feeding the Third Circle

Imagine your Identity as three circles in a Ven Diagram; Who You Want to Be, Who You Think You Are, and Who Others Think You Are. The intersection in the center would represent the greatest approxima…

00:26:24  |   Wed 09 Sep 2020
Real Time Self Talk

Real Time Self Talk

I started the episode absolutely lost and absent, but just needed to get into it. What came out was on the spot self talk on getting through a 'moment'.

00:17:24  |   Wed 02 Sep 2020
From Being Recharged to Max Drain Rate

From Being Recharged to Max Drain Rate

Just getting off a great hunting trip in MT with amazing people and feeling renewed in spirit and humanity to being reconnected to the word and absolute disgust.

What is going on!?

00:27:20  |   Wed 26 Aug 2020
Self Awareness as a Fault

Self Awareness as a Fault

I'm finding that sometimes (unwittingly) our self awareness is what holds us back or provides excuses.

It's the same as labels or stereotypes having an affect on us to only be just that. Except it is …

00:25:35  |   Wed 12 Aug 2020
Fighting Tasks & Burning Wood

Fighting Tasks & Burning Wood

Talking out loud how it's easy to get buried and start to feel paralyzed by mounting tasks. 

I have some strategies that I try to ply and am aware at where I succeed, fall trap, and regress.

Most of al…

00:23:52  |   Thu 06 Aug 2020
Loss of Accountability & Fear of Confrontation

Loss of Accountability & Fear of Confrontation

Holding each other (ourselves) Accountable is NOT at odds with Tolerance, Patience, Understanding, or Forgiveness. In fact, it is ESSENTIAL in the process of growth & goodness.

Podcasts links where I …

00:31:45  |   Wed 29 Jul 2020
A Few Things I Practice

A Few Things I Practice

This week I put together a few things that I keep in my pocket and always try to practice. They likely seem trite, but for me they transfer into success in many others areas.

If you spend the time doi…

00:32:49  |   Wed 15 Jul 2020
Respect & Loyalty

Respect & Loyalty

Loyalty isn't simply given or granted. It can't be asked for, demanded, or bribed. 

Loyalty is earned through Mutual Respect. It is predicated on Trust.

Anyone who plays the "loyalty card" under any ci…

00:22:13  |   Wed 08 Jul 2020
Thresholds & Responses

Thresholds & Responses

Take 2 on this episode. I needed to re-center and communicate with less frustration.

No summary. Just listen.

00:54:19  |   Thu 02 Jul 2020
Loud & Self Righteous = Red Flag

Loud & Self Righteous = Red Flag

A bit of a rant that was supposed to stay metered and simply use an example to articulate a way I am thinking about people who peacock their self righteousness or call to action.

Boycotting is not a t…

00:44:51  |   Wed 24 Jun 2020
It's All In Your Head

It's All In Your Head

Processing Diesel Day ‘Grit Check’ to make the parallel between athletic endeavor and challenges of a Veteran.

Current brain fodder:
"How Will You Measure Your Life?" ~Clayton Christensen


00:35:51  |   Wed 17 Jun 2020
Uncertain Times

Uncertain Times

Just coming out of our Big Fish Foundation fundraiser event and into the CrossFit confusion. All of course amidst Covid-19 and the George Floyd injustices.

I'm sure I'm not the only one feeling adrift…

00:23:06  |   Wed 10 Jun 2020
Rebuffering

Rebuffering

I needed to sort through a few things about popularity, fitting in, and trying to get inclusion with the 'noticeable crowd' vs focusing on the crowd you have that accepts you and shares the more conn…

00:17:24  |   Wed 03 Jun 2020
Thoughts Post Memorial Day

Thoughts Post Memorial Day

I recognize I'm a little off still, but Memorial Day is hard for me. I try to explain why.

00:15:17  |   Wed 27 May 2020
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