My Humanity Is Showing

In this episode, I share some reflections about the impact nostalgia has on my personality. In many ways, I am a collection of my memories.

I have a hard time seeing myself as a valuable person who is allowed to ask for assistance from others. My tendency is to start requests with “I am so sorry to bother you…” or add “I am high maintena…

With Super Bowl LVII coming up, several people are asking me, “Which team are you rooting for: Chiefs or Eagles?” In this episode, I share my experiences with football and other competitive team spor…

I am not a fan of flying! Everything from airports to plane exhaust bothers me. Most of all, I hate not being in the cockpit flying the plane. I have a strong need to be in control. In this episode, …

In this week’s episode, we continue where we left off last week with the rest of the recording from the live session on the Wisdom app.

In my teens, I became committed to religion. This was the start …

In my teens, I became committed to religion. This was the start of a long journey of seeking perfection on faith. Through my own personal struggles, I was led to a break from religion while I strived…

“Sweet Dreams are made of this…” I stumbled upon this famous song at the end of the episode and it reminded me of the famous sililoquy about suicidal ideation “To be or not to be, that is the questio…

With the start of a new year on the Gregorian Calendar, I shared my experiences with another calendar (Hijri). This opened up a discussion on various holidays, customs, traditions, languages, and cul…

I have always struggled with a tremendous fear of missing out (FOMO). In particular, holidays and vacations create a feeling in me of being abandoned. Over time, I have learned to support the positiv…

It seems that Sunday evenings are often heavy for me as I mentally prepare to face the week. In this episode, I explore the narratives that may be fueling my discontent with the start of the work wee…

I live under the illusion of control. I have often believed that any success I have experienced in my life is the direct result of how hard I have tried to control the outcomes. In recent years, I ha…

Lately I have been struggling with what seems to be increasing memory issues: forgetting names, what I was doing, making mistakes, etc… This tempts me to shame myself and want to indulge self-loathin…

When I was in college, I had a pretty dark view of life. I often quoted Hamlet  (Shakespeare’s play about a suicidal Danish prince) and wished for death. One of the most common phrases I frequently s…

Part of being human means that in certain situations I have no control over my body (and mind). Then why do I try so hard to hide my humanity? Does pretending to be an android somehow make me more li…

Since I can remember, I have had trouble focusing. My brain is often completely scattered, and thoughts seem to pop around in my head like little fleas. This inability to focus has caused great pain …

Why is it so hard for me to maintain eye contact? Am I afraid of intimacy (into me, you see)? I can’t even seem to maintain eye contact with myself. 

In this week’s episode, I reflect on the topic of …

Happy birthday to me. Happy birthday to me. Happy birthday, dear me! Happy 50th birthday to me!

A tremendous amount of fear has been bypassed. Despite all the voices of shame and self-doubt, I am publ…