Death of DREAM & Healing the "Death" of Something or Someone [Part 1-3]

Just 3 days after the death of my horse, which triggered losing my sister and father....I share with my dear friend, Marilyn what I was going through to help empower those who can relate to any type of "Death." #RealRawRelatable

In this series, here is the Before snapshot of my own personal experience of mental and emotioanl transformation. This is all about evolving consciousness and how to deal directly with heartbreak and grief.

I'm unable to hold back my tears after unexpectedly losing my purebred Andalusian performance horse, Hermoso CVIII, aka "Angel." He and I were in training together, as I practice to compete on new higher levels.  

BUT, this is more than just losing my horse, it's about the grieving process and death of a long time DREAM! Digging deeper into the depths of the human mind and spirit, there's way more here than meets the eye.... 

On the surface this horse was directly connected to the death of my father because of my own spiritual beliefs. Just days after my father died, this horse showed up out of nowhere and was meant to be mine. But then Angel dies, retriggering the pain of losing my father, which UNconsiously caused my feelings to shut down, closing off my heart. Simply because I didn't want to feel the crushing sorrow anymore. 

Yet, I had NO idea this was happening because my life is full of dreams come true, and I've been living life on my terms. Though, there was a part of my heart closing off that I didn't see.... 

It's never ever about the physical world and what we think we see. It goes far deeper into the FEELINGS connected to our heart and soul. Death in all forms is a wake up call to get an opportunity to gain greater insights and wisdom to expand our heart's capacity to LOVE more deeply, NOT less.

However, the human brain will trick us to inadvertently close off and harden our heart and distract us from enduring the depths of the heartache. Why? Because our brain is designed to override emotional processing to prioritize survival mode. Meaning, attending to practical needs rather than emotional needs.

Over time, if left to our own devices, if we don't consciously choose to go back and process these chaotic feelings and sensations, it worsens the underlying, unresolved turmoil. 

Ultimately, causing serious REPRESSION---unknowingly pushing feelings out of awareness, which is detrimental on all levels. 

The concept of "Death" comes in all shapes, sizes and forms. This was the death of losing another dream horse, and I've had many. But this time, I was subconsciously triggered back into the grief of no longer having my father, and then losing my sister years ago. So, the trauma runs deep, far and wide.

There's obvious death - of a person or pet. And there's the death of a romance, job, marriage, career, losing a position of authority, a demotion, losing a favorite car or object of desire, etc. Simply losing someone or something that you feel a deep connection to.

Loss is symbolic of "Death."

This experience has so many layers for me, and with every death associated with the next death, a piece of my heart dies. As time progresses, my heart kept dying just a little bit more. Yet, this was NOT obvious to me because so many aspects of my life have been getting better and better with more wishes coming to fruition!

Yet, this was extremely difficult to detect. Because by default, the human brain focuses on the physical world, not the inner emotional world! I've created an awesome outer world, but still missing what truly matters....profound feelings of fulfilling bliss. 

The catalyst was just this. Within weeks following the loss of Angel, I was offered yet another Dream Horse on my wish list. But, I wasn't excited or happy about it. The more goodness I kept creating and magnetizing, the less joy and exuberance I felt.  

Once I realized this, it forced me to wake up and examine what was really going on!!!!

Bottom line, all the devastating deaths in my life where UNCONSIOUSLY rearing their ugly heads, overshadowing and cancelling out my hearts capacity to feel abundant love, joy and graitude. 

Join me as I explain the inner workings of the mind and heart to empower YOU!!!!!

#KarenLoveLeeEmpowersYOU #EmpoweringYouThroughUs