The Truth about being Chased vs Valued

Lets talk LOVE… No Limerance.

I had a lot on my mind this morning. Or heart, perhaps.

I don’t know what triggered the thought, although it seems to be residing in the atmosphere of my mind in one way, shape or the other.

It played a role in my life, at one point.

I filmed this and so many words came through. I thought I could edit it, cut some parts out. I re listened and went, wait, no! I didn’t mean to say it like that or feared it might be perceived in a way I did not intend.

That often happens when those streams of thought come through, you can’t really backpedal like in a physical conversation.

Luckily with writing, it is easier to edit and communicate.

And I suppose that was my practice and lesson in regards to verbal communication.

To be scrutinized, or to be felt.

Or not to be heard at all.

I dont know how the podcast/audio works on this side of Substack or who the audience is. Maybe I am talking to void.

In this case, I kind of hope.

But here it is either way. Unpolished and uncut. Straight from the mind to the tongue.

One of my take aways this afternoon was how I would like to eventually lead tours in Egypt. I feel comfortable with that idea, however I tend to wonder… Am I any good at relaying information? If not, how can I practice?

So here I am. Re listening to myself, like how an athlete re watches games.

I still have so much more now to relay in regards to this particular topic.

I felt there were some segues that didn’t get explained efficiently.

I kinda jumped from limerence, to past relationships and then the insane amount of knowledge we have at our fingertips and how that can sometimes be weaponized when it comes to certain groups of people.

Anyways, that’s a draft run of the circus.

Just gotta learn to tame and untamed certain parts of myself.

Figuring it all out, much love.

Chenee