12. Learning to Dream Again: Anne Alter’s Life with Schizophrenia

Learning to Dream Again: Anne Alter’s Life with Schizophrenia by Jennifer Matesa

TRIGGER WARNING

Anne Alter’s story unpacks the experience of living with a mental illness in a sanist society, where people diagnosed with psychiatric disabilities are systemically silenced, neglected, and even abused. In her narrative, we learn about what it is like living with suicidal ideation and the experience of forced hospitalization, and recovering from patterns of abuse including sexual assault and predatory relationships—including a relationship with a mental health care provider outside of the family who made unwelcome references to their own incestuous impulses—as well as on themes of isolation, and emotional manipulation. Through the telling of Anne’s story, we are also introduced to Jennifer Matesa, the interviewer, who shares her own raw experiences of surviving emotional and sexual abuse. While both of these stories document the trials and trauma that can come with living a marginalized identity, they are really testaments to strength and resilience.

You can listen to the list of resources in the second track of this audiobook titled "On Trigger Warnings", or read them below. It’s important to be aware of these resources as well as share them with others so we are all equipped and empowered with information that helps all of us stay safe. 

Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-TALK (8255)

Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 988 (as of July 16, 2022)

For TTY Users use your preferred relay service or dial 711 then 1-800-273-8255.

Allegheny County Peer Support Warmline Service: 1-866-661-WARM (9276)

Peer specialists are trained to actively listen to their peers, empathize with their concerns, and empower individuals to choose their path to wellness and recovery.

PAAR (Pittsburgh Action Against Rape): 1-866-363-7273

Access text/chat via: paar.net.

RAINN (Rape, Abuse, and Incest National Network): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) Access TTY: 1-800-799-4TTY (4889)

Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration’s (SAMHSA) National Helpline: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)

National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) TTY: 1-800-787-3224

Live chat: thehotline.org

National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) HelpLine: 1-800-950-NAMI (6264)

Web chat: www.nami.org/help

Resources for veterans

NVF Lifeline for Vets: 1-888-777-4443

Stop Soldier Suicide: 844-317-1136

Veterans Crisis Line: (TTY)711+1-800-273-8255 #1; or text 838255.