Merry Shitmas and a Crappy New Year - Episode 10

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In this deeply personal and vulnerable episode, I take you behind the scenes of what the last few months have really been like. It’s been a while since I recorded, and honestly, there’s been a lot of internal struggle, especially when it comes to balancing motherhood, marriage, and my mental health. From a lonely birthday spent quarantined on a cruise to the festive period struggles that followed, I’m sharing the truth about what this Christmas season looked like for me—not the curated holiday photos or perfectly staged family moments, but the reality of it all.

During this episode, I talk openly about the emotional toll of mum guilt and the pressure to be a "perfect" mum during the holiday season, when everyone around you seems to have it all together. I admit how much I struggled mentally and physically throughout the Christmas season, feeling disconnected and overwhelmed by the expectations of what “Christmas should be” versus the reality of what it was for us. From missing out on family Christmas traditions to feeling like I wasn’t doing enough for my toddler, Taryn, I explore how these feelings of guilt and inadequacy affected me during what is supposed to be the happiest time of the year.

As a toddler mum, I reflect on the guilt of not creating those magical memories for Taryn that so many parents seem to be capturing. But at the same time, I’ve learned to embrace those quiet, unfiltered moments that make me feel most present with my son—even if they don’t make it to Instagram. I share why my favourite part of Christmas wasn’t the staged photos or the perfect “family traditions,” but the small, intimate moments of peace spent together, with no need to prove anything to anyone.

I also dive into the complexities of being a mum in business, and how the pressure to keep up appearances on social media often feels at odds with the messiness of real life. How much of myself is too much to share? How do I balance motherhood, marriage, and my own identity without feeling like I’m losing myself? These are the questions I’m grappling with as I enter 2025, trying to find my footing in a world that expects constant perfection.

This episode is about embracing the raw and real aspects of motherhood and marriage—the moments that often go unspoken but are so important. If you’ve ever felt the weight of mental health struggles, mum guilt, or the pressure of being a perfect parent, I hope this episode resonates with you. It’s a reminder that you’re not alone, and it’s okay to not have it all figured out. If you're feeling lonely, disconnected, or like you're just not meeting expectations, I see you, and I’m here to share my story so you know that you're not alone.

So, join me as I reflect on the challenges of the past year, and the lessons learned in embracing the messiness of life as a mum, wife, and individual. Let’s talk about the struggles we don’t always post on Instagram—the real, unfiltered moments that make us h

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