A day where I feel like I'm in a Monty Python sketch

Feeling a bit like I can't win for losing. The meditation plus intro are roadblocked by unexpected life happenings driven by ableism and nuttiness. It's collapsing me and likely will mean I don't have enough money until May from a medical / financial stance. Doing my best to stay strong and focus on the blossoms coming. Here's a picture of the first one