#101 Freeform - The Circle in the Square

Yo. I'm the circle in the square

The odd guy over there.

I'm the monster in the closet so you'd better beware

But maybe I'm being unfair

So let me say what I mean and you can see if you care



I know I can seem all confident and full of vigour

But that doesn't mean I don't assume people snigger

Behind my back

About social skills I lack

Things others were taught but for me fell through the crack



Is it right, is it fair, is it honest, is it true?

What do they say about me? What could I do?

I've never known if I'm cool or not

Never known if others consider me hot

All I know is there's no social awkwardness I've caused that I've ever forgot



I can assume it's normal, but never really know

Is this social anxiety natural? Can it really be though?

Don't get me wrong. I love to chat and meet people I haven't met before

But when I think of what they must think of me I head to the door

Not wanting to plague them with my presence any more



I've been called unusual. I've been called weird.

I've been outed and laughed at, but I don't think ever feared.

I'm the butt of many jokes, The stereotypical guy.

The one who is seen as all surface and no inner, but why?

I guess that's just how it goes. And why that is, man, no one knows.



Just know this

I do feel awkward

I do wonder what people think of me.

I'm aware it's probably not much

And if it is much, it's probably not good.

But I don't really mind.

Just know I've yet to meet someone I dislike.

And, if you are happy talking to me

I'm happy to stay a little longer and chat with you.

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