Forgive Yourself and Repent

Repent

Have you ever been caught in the act, rightfully accused of something and later forgiven for it but never healed from it internally?  That kind of thinking can influence EVERYTHING.

A righteous God. A holy God.  A God so pure that He will not allow sin in his presence. And the same time, a loving God. A sacrificial father. Who has called me to repentance. And before you say, what have you got to repent for, let me confess to you that I am no different than you in the eyes of God. No matter what you think of me, I got issues. I was unable to figure out what my issues were until after a long drive across country last week. 11 hours of driving, in silent contemplation did a lot for my spirit.

I saw something on a billboard that spoke to my heart. I questioned myself, I searched the Scriptures that I was somehow blinded to before. I was convicted. I was hurt.  I was grieved.

I have done a lot of a good in my life to overcome the bad I have also done. You ever do that?  You accidently steal something and then later try to fix it by giving or blessing someone else.  The new person thinks more of you, than you do yourself.  This is my personal perception. My world view.

So why was this billboard grievous?  I always knew there was something I had done that kept me just off enough to not be blessed by God. He has blessed me, don’t get me wrong, but I have had more things and opportunities than the law should allow, but even with all that, I could tell there was something off with me. And I couldn’t figure it out. Till now. I had a sin, that I was under, I have a part of my personality that I thought I couldn’t change. I am not going to share what that is, but let me give you an example.

If you go to prison, and get out after 40 years, although free you are an EX CONVICT.  You will always be and EXCON. Right?  You may never commit another crime, and live the best you can, but you will unfortunately always be and EXCON.  What is worse than what society throws on you is what you think of yourself.

You won’t, (and I didn’t) think that although forgiven by GOD my mind was still imprisoning me.  I am institutionalized to believe my X file is still me.  So as a man thinketh, so is he.  This wrong thinking steals my joy.  It kept me bound. 

Have you ever been caught in the act, rightfully accused of something and later forgiven for it but never healed from it internally?  That kind of thinking can influence EVERYTHING.

• Repent ye therefore, and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, when the times of refreshing shall come from the presence of the Lord.

Acts 3:19

• If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

1 John 1:9

• He that covereth his sins shall not prosper: but whoso confesseth and forsaketh them shall have mercy.

Proverbs 28:13

And rend your heart,

and not your garments,

and turn unto the Lord your God:

for he is gracious and merciful,

slow to anger, and of great kindness,

and repenteth him of the evil.

Joel 2:13

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