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At a Total Loss

We’ve all had moments that leave us at a total loss — for words, for direction, for what comes next. For me, that moment came when my baby died at 37 weeks. I know firsthand what it feels like to have the world stop and to wonder if you’ll ever find a way forward again.

Sometimes it’s the death of someone you love. Sometimes it’s heartbreak, illness, trauma, or failure. But being “at a total loss” isn’t where the story ends.

This podcast is about what happens after the unthinkable. Each week, host Katherine Lazar sits down with people who have faced life’s hardest blows and asks the real questions: How did you survive? What did it take to keep going? And how did you find a way to thrive again?

Because the truth is, we don’t survive these moments alone. It’s in the stories we share and the community we build that we find the strength to keep going.

Raw, unfiltered, and sometimes even funny, At a Total Loss is here to remind you: whatever’s left you speechless, you’re not alone — and there’s a way forward, together.

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Update frequency
every 7 days
Average duration
61 minutes
Episodes
116
Years Active
2022 - 2025
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A Touch of Teddy

A Touch of Teddy

Teddy’s mama, Elizabeth, started A Touch of Teddy 501(c)3 in 2023 in his memory, with a mission to send free teddy bear ornaments to pregnancy & infant loss families during the month of October. In t…

00:51:38  |   Thu 28 Aug 2025
Lara: Losing Malek & Finding Answers

Lara: Losing Malek & Finding Answers

In this episode, my ATL Loss Mama friend, Lara, tells us about her sweet 1st son Malek who passed at 28 weeks. She has since had her 2nd son Sami who is turning 1. Lara has a rare autoimmune disorder…

01:03:24  |   Fri 15 Aug 2025
Lexi: Leaning into the Pain

Lexi: Leaning into the Pain

After losing her first daughter Lily at birth, Lexi set out to feel it all. To her it was important for her to lean into her pain, her grief, and her motherhood to a baby no longer here. Lexi poured …

00:58:15  |   Sat 12 Jul 2025
Loss Life Lately

Loss Life Lately

I'm on the mic to discuss what's been goin on in this sh*t show. I'm all over the place with my iced coffee and ketamine stories and punching the air and the fine line between crazy and not giving af…

00:57:26  |   Thu 03 Jul 2025
Elle: Triplet Loss Mom & Therapist

Elle: Triplet Loss Mom & Therapist

Elle is mama to her triplets in the stars, Noah, Eden & Hudson who were born severely prematurely in June 2021. Since then she has had their little brother, Sonny born in 2023. Elle is a successful t…

01:04:11  |   Fri 27 Jun 2025
Kate: Grief & Beauty after infant loss

Kate: Grief & Beauty after infant loss

In this episode I speak to my girl Kate, her precious son, Cameron James Miranda was born May 4, 2022. He spent 9 days at home before being diagnosed with Enterovirus Myocarditis. He fought for 4 mon…

01:01:59  |   Thu 19 Jun 2025
Emmy: Coping & Hoping After Stillbirth

Emmy: Coping & Hoping After Stillbirth

Emmy is the mother of Layla, who was stillborn at 39 weeks in November 2022. She finds comfort and copes with her pain through taking care of her home and helping others find healing as well. Althoug…

02:35:40  |   Thu 12 Jun 2025
She's back on her BS

She's back on her BS

I'm back and with a mini "rebrand"...At a Total Loss is now Living the Loss Life because well, that's what I'm doing every single day and I'm here to share it with you.

When I first hit record, I was …

00:48:40  |   Thu 05 Jun 2025
Anna & Kent Thalman: Filmmakers

Anna & Kent Thalman: Filmmakers

Anna and Kent are Atlanta Loss Parents whose son Seth was born and passed away on September 28, 2021. The film is screening this Saturday here in Atlanta and then soon nationwide at select theaters.

O…

00:50:57  |   Thu 20 Mar 2025
How Perfectionism Makes Grief Harder

How Perfectionism Makes Grief Harder

Rio Richards, Grief & Trauma Recovery Therapist, is BACK to discuss all things grief. She opens up about what she struggles with after losing her father 4 years ago. We specifically talk about the 8 …

01:04:31  |   Thu 13 Mar 2025
January 87, 2025

January 87, 2025

This is the 87th day of January and we are still doin the damn thing. I get on the mic to talk about the latest and greatest in loss life...

Here's what I talk about:

  • This being the longest month ever …
00:52:36  |   Sat 01 Feb 2025
Mason Sawyer

Mason Sawyer

Mason of the 10ninety Podcast was the guest speaker at our 2025 raised By angels Charity Gala this past weekend. On July 25, 2021, Mason’s life changed forever when he lost his wife Kortni, son Riggi…

00:59:18  |   Thu 23 Jan 2025
New Year, Same Sh*t

New Year, Same Sh*t

Hey everyone! I'm on the mic just yappin away, it's fun for me. I talk about this new year and how literally nothing is going to change (resolutions are dumb after your baby dies).  I also have some …

00:45:57  |   Thu 16 Jan 2025
Dr Joanne Cacciatore- Grief Doctor

Dr Joanne Cacciatore- Grief Doctor

This is one of THE most powerfully inspiring episodes I've done to date. PLEASE, if you are a loss parent and even if you are not, listen to this episode....Dr. Joanne Cacciatore is a bereaved mother…

00:58:27  |   Thu 09 Jan 2025
Tallia: Loss Mama & Life Coach

Tallia: Loss Mama & Life Coach

Tallia Deljou is a fellow loss mom and life coach specializing in healing emotional wounds. Her loss journey includes 2 recurrent miscarriages followed by the loss of her son Araam, who was born prem…

00:55:55  |   Wed 11 Dec 2024
100th Episode!

100th Episode!

Liz from Episode 1 is back to check in about where she is 2 years after our first recording ( I cannot believe it!) At the time, I was 6 months out from losing Brody and Liz was 9 months out from los…

00:50:33  |   Wed 04 Dec 2024
Maila's Present

Maila's Present

Helena's beloved daughter, Maila, was born still at 36 weeks and 5 days on December 29th, 2022 despite being in "perfect health" during her pregnancy.  She is the inspiration behind creating personal…

01:21:32  |   Wed 27 Nov 2024
Holidays After Loss

Holidays After Loss

*Recoded prior to Halloween*...Holidays after baby loss are so weird. I'll also share insight from other mamas on how they've dealt in the past and the advice they have moving forward. Ways to honor …

01:05:47  |   Mon 18 Nov 2024
Rio Richards | Grief & Trauma Recovery Therapist

Rio Richards | Grief & Trauma Recovery Therapist

Rio is a psychotherapist and grief integration coach, specializing in helping individuals and couples navigate the profound and complex journey of loss and trauma. With a somatic and psychodynamic le…

01:02:08  |   Mon 11 Nov 2024
Jillian + Lorenzo

Jillian + Lorenzo

Jillian is the founder of Courage in Time Inc., a nonprofit supporting families who have experienced stillbirth and infant loss through curated bereavement boxes, grief and postpartum resources, and …

01:03:54  |   Mon 02 Sep 2024
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